stop treating me like i am,

fucking listen to me.

YOU ARE SO BUFF!!!!

I had a good lie down yesterday.

so it's all cool

i don't need to be in a relationship with him.

I enjoy being his friend, I want to listen to the part of me who wants to keep it that way.

I feel if anything advanced i would regret it. So i'm happy with this.



:lily-FC:


btw my mood is messing up i'm not miserable

The tears shall fall
And the eyes shall burn with never ending rubbing


A crack in the mirror.....

a sorry sight it is......




Let’s go right now!

J-dog:
I look alive, I'm dead inside.
My heart has holes
And black blood flows.

We'll do some drugs,
We’ll fall in love and
Get fucked up while
The world just shrugs.

With no thought logically.
We’re wondering
The streets so aimlessly.

I hate to see these kids
Just being put down so painlessly.

And people say you dye your hair
And wear tight jeans.
That doesn’t mean,
That you can’t scream,
Or like loud noise.
You got a choice,
You have a voice.

And just because you showed
No love and hate on us,
You fucked our trust.
Now watch we thrust this
Knife called lust,
Into my chest until it bust.

Tha Producer:
This love, this hate
Is burning me away.
(Is burning me away)
It's hard to face that
We're all the same.

This love, this hate
Is burning me away.
(Is burning me away)
It's harder times like these
That never change
(That never change)

Charlie Scene:
Mad at the fact your dad is an addict,
Your friend takes pills
He thinks it cures sadness,
I'm not here to attack
Or make you kids panic,
But it's just tragic
The way you kids have it.

And everybody sins
And it all begins,
It goes back around,
Nobody ever wins.
And you stab yourself in the back,
Everybody just relax!

It all just hits so close to home,
We all got friends but we stand alone,
And your on your own
From a broken home,
You keep the truth inside
And it stays unknown.

Nostalgia hit and its time to quit,
And everybody acts
Like it don't mean shit.
And your friend will stab you
Just to fuck some girl,
Put your hands in the air and scream
Fuck the world!

Tha Producer:
This love, this hate
Is burning me away.
(Is burning me away)
It's hard to face that
We're all the same.

This love, this hate
Is burning me away.
(Is burning me away)
It's harder times like these
That never change
(That never change)

Tha Producer, Charlie Scene:
Let go!
I'll bring you closer
Right now!
I'll hold on tightly
Let go!
We're going no where.
Somewhere!
And things aren't over.
Harder times like these!
Growing up on the streets!
Harder times like these!
I'll put you back on your feet!

Tha Producer:
This love, this hate
Is burning me away.
(Is burning me away)
It's hard to face that
We're all the same.

This love, this hate
Is burning me away.
(Is burning me away)
It's harder times like these
That never change
(That never change)

Charlie Scene:
And I fall to the ground with my teardrops
And I get lost every time my heart stops

Tha Producer:
This love this hate is burning me away

Charlie Scene:
And I fall to the ground with my teardrops
And I get lost every time my heart stops

(Scream)
This love this hate is burning me away

I'm using hormones as an excuse for my depression.

i'm still not entirely sure why i feel so sad all the time.

at first it was because i wasn't happy with my weight loss but i've had my breakdown on that (no worries guys i'm fine now)

I think it's unfufillment as well, life is so bleak right now.

*sigh*

And I guess i'm feeling slightly lonely as well, even though i'm reluctant to be in a relationship well not that i CAN be in one.

then again maybe it is my hormones, who knows i'm just a mumbling idiot

excuse me now i have to go put on my smile everyones waiting for me....